Today I received the most drenching phone call from my RE.

My Blood work results were in. Out of 21 tests 3 were bad; Natural killer cells, Methylenetetrahydrofolate, and homocysteine, cardiovascular.

I knew it from the second I had fevers during both of my cycles that I had natural killer (NK) cells. My doctor said shouldn’t be an issue, which I knew it would.  The nursed advised me I had high NK cells.

Methylenetetrahydrofolate reductase (mthfr), DNA: Positive for one copy of the c677t mutation and one copy of the a1298c mutation

This individual is compound heterozygous for the mutations, c677t and a1298c in the mthfr gene. This result has been associated with an increased risk for hyperhomocyteinemia and vascular diseases. There have been rare reports where the c677t and a1298c mutations are on the same chromosome; however the clinical significance of this is not well understood. It is not presently possible to determine whether these two mutations are on opposite chromosomes (trans) or on the same chromosome (cis). This can only be page 5 of 8 determined by testing the parents of this individual. F the parents are unavailable, testing other close family members may be helpful. Until further information is available, care taken regarding the medical management of these individuals. Consider genetic counseling and DNA testing for at-risk family members.

–       Masamichi Ito, Ph.D.,FACM, Director, molecular genetics

Homocysteine Cardiovascular 10.5 umol/L H and normal should be  <10.4.

My RE advised me to go see a Hematologist, which I have an appointment next week.

I’m extremely upset; it’s bad news after bad news. I just don’t understand why? Am I every going to get pregnant? Will I ever have a child? I feel like I am too young to be going through this. Life is just not fare!

I know I should be strong and positive, although, today is just not my day. I’m fighting through every emotion in my body just to stop crying. Trying to understand why this is happening why am I not getting pregnant. And to make things worse the friend, which I mentioned last week who kept telling me about my friend getting pregnant just texted me saying she had a dream again. Seriously!  It’s not the time; I don’t need it right now.

-Hope